Month: April 2016

Blessings in Disguise

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That’s right, it’s been one of those days. A day where you have a list of things to do and a mountain of laundry literally almost as high as your kitchen counter……..and everything seems to go wrong.

It actually started off not too bad. Our beautiful toddler woke up with  happy with a smile on her face….but things only seemed to go downhill from there. I was her jungle gym during my workout, which I have no problem with,gets me quicker results.😜 But then suddenly she disappears. And it’s super quiet, like the calm before the storm and you know something is going on. You pause your workout at go look….Sure enough, she’s gone and helped herself to mommy’s collection of books. Yes, I know, I know, probably shouldn’t have them toddler level but we are trying (key word trying) to house proof our baby, not the other way around. But that was okay too, I put the book back on the shelf; explained to her that it is a no, no book. No harm done. But the day goes own. The beautiful toddler isn’t smiling anymore. One second she’s following you around, crying because she couldn’t have the cleaning rag. Next second she’s off to dunk some laundry in the toilet. Then she refuses to eat all her lunch. About 20 mins later she’s looking up at you with puppy eyes holding a granola bar or a bag of gummies she fished out of the snack drawer. Now it’s time for what you hope will be a nice long nap to refresh that cranky little bundle of cute…. No, that’s not happening. About 45 mins later she’s standing in her crib demanding to get out. And the fun continues… you close the snack cabinet for the umpteenth time. You think the bathroom doors are closed, but then you hear the toilet lid bang. You think the garbage is out of her reach until she’s looking up at you grinning….. with a soiled wet wipe in her hand! Insert gag here!! And so on….Your frustration level rises higher and higher… What are you going to do? Yell, scream, pull your hair out, run away……..?

No…you are gonna take a deep breath and thank God for this beautiful child He has given you……. For you can never say you are bored. You are going to steal a moment and slip into your room alone and kneel to pray… Because you cannot do this alone. You are going to smile and explain to your sweet child AGAIN why she can’t have gummies or granola bars for breakfast, lunch and supper. why? I’ll tell you why. Because the second they give you that sweet kiss, that heartwarming smile, that giant hug, you realize they are worth every second of the bad days.  God has given us only a short time with these precious toddlers. So when the day gets rough, and your temper is short., take a break and talk to God. He will refresh you, He will help you stumble through the rest of the day.

And He will open your eyes to all the blessings in disguise. 

 

The Master is Coming!

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Scripture Reading: Matthew 24:36-51

“Therefore you also be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an hour you do not expect.” -Matthew 24:44

Doesn’t that give you joy? The Son of Man is coming! The Savior will return and take us home! But there is a catch…. He is coming at an hour we do not expect. Will you be ready? Will I be ready?

The scripture reading reminded me of an incident from home when I was a child.
My mom and dad where leaving to go to town to do some shopping and they left my sister and I at home alone…. With a list of chores that we were to complete before playtime or whatever it was that we wanted to do. And i recall a day where we did not feel like doing these chores at all. So as the vehicle carrying mom and dad disappeared from sight, we were off to do the things we wanted to do. Suddenly, with dread in our hearts, we hear the crunch of tires on gravel. They had returned! And much sooner than we expected. We rushed frantically around our house, tidy this up a bit, sweep there a bit, but it was to late. The crumbs of our laziness were still laying on the floor, the dishes of our foolishness were still piled high in the sink. Disappointment covered mom’s face as she stepped through the door. And we had to face the judgement and consequences. But we always got another chance. It will not be so with the Lord’s second return. He will return for the final judgement and there will be no second chances. So lets make sure we are serving the Lord and doing “chores” for Him. For if our mom had walked in on us doing our chores diligently and knew that we had not thrown them aside, she would still have been pleased. We were still doing her will. Just as the Heavenly Father will be pleased when Christ returns and we are surprised by Him in the midst of our work, which we are doing for His glory.

“Blessed is the servant whom his master, when he comes, will find so doing. Assuredly, I say to you that he will make him a ruler over all his goods.” -Matthew 24:46-47

The Measure of a Man

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The Measure of a Man

The measure of a man cannot be confined
Within the amount of roads he travels,
Nor the quantity of the steps his feet trod.
His value cannot be concluded by his bank account,
Nor his quality in terms of success.
Rather, the constitution of a man
Is demonstrated by the tremor in his words
When spoken to an unfortunate soul.
And in the generosity in his dealings
With his temporary earthly fortunes
In light of his eternal recompense.
It is revealed in his actions
Towards societies lesser person,
And in his adamant conviction
That the former is nonexistent.
The capacity of a man is told
In his distinction between good and evil,
His earnest conquest for truth and justice,
And in his solemn acknowledgment
That the latter does not always follow the former.
It is declared in the wake of sheer willpower
When life’s adversaries threaten to snuff out his fire,
And in his immense strength and masculine ability
To face those adversaries unyielding.
His competency shines
Through a veiled heart and modest words,
Revealing an earnest desire to become
More than he’s ever been.
No, the measure of a man cannot be explained
In terms of the miles nor footsteps his feet have trod.
It can only be defined in the lope of his stride
And the fervor in his soul
As he gives his all in every battle he is faced with
Along the roads of life that he travels.

*Inspired by the thought provoking question of a coworker when he asked:
“How many roads does a man have to walk to prove he is truly a man?”*

Tired and losing Hope? You are not alone!

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I’m going mad. There are voices in my head, and they are in battle. I want to do what’s right and I want to serve the Lord. I just don’t know where to turn from this black void, this limbo. SILENCE. CALM. PEACE. These are what I seek. Not a sound or distraction in the world. I want these electronic demons destroyed because they turn me into a mess. A broken shattered  piece of flesh. Ripping me from my Savior’s presence. A mother who doesn’t want to hear her child’s cry. A lazy selfish person who doesn’t want to feed the ones who are in need. A wife who doesn’t mind when her husband is gone. I cannot feel anything except this agonizing horrible ache in my chest. My head wants to explode and I scream out to God.

“Why won’t you rescue me? Why won’t you show a way? I am so confused. You say to come to You and You have rest but then why don’t I?……”
I am broken, worn. I hang my head. Why do I constantly fight this battle?

“I’m spiraling Lord. Out of control. I’m drowning beneath the waves. They are crushing my soul…. Will I ever find peace?”
How can I go on. I am ready to give up all hope. I feel lost…like a light is growing dim. Like a rose withering… All that is left is darkness, pain and sorrow.

“When, Oh Lord, will you hear my voice? When?! When will you answer my prayers? When will you renew me and make me a new soul? When will you give me the strength I beg for??…………..
When, Lord? I need you. I need You to hear me. I cannot go on like this…”

And then in the silence He answers:

“I will never leave you nor forsake you.” -Hebrews 13:5 (NKJV) ” If God is for us who can be against us?” – Romans 8:31 (NKJV) My Holy Spirit walks with you, you are never alone.

But my heart is hardened. I am angry.I am blaming God without realizing it. The evening is coming to a close and I am tired and filled with unhappiness. But then, my eyes are opened as my dear husband says to me, “You need to trust in God! Do you truly? With everything?”

My reply is frustrated, “Yes, but nothing happens! I keep spiraling. He doesn’t give me the strength!”

He looks at me, and answers with another question,” Do you really think God is going to come in here and force you?”

And the shells fall from my eyes. I break down. Christ has been standing here, beside me, all along. Waiting patiently. Holding out in His hands, STRENGTH. Instead of taking action and reaching out and grasping a hold of this strength and power that Christ offers through Him, I sit here and blame Him for not forcing it on me. But God will never force anything on us, He waits patiently for us to take action. We must do so! Faith without works or action is dead. (James 2:17) We cannot sit around hopelessly, and wait for God to do something. We must act out of our faith. Trust in the Lord and take the power and strength He offers and do something!

So next time we feel like losing hope, let’s take a look at where we stand with Christ. Are we lounging around once again or will we trust in the Lord, always?

“Trust in the Lord will all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge (notice it’s a verb, take action) Him, and He shall direct your paths. Do not be wise in your own eyes; Fear the Lord and depart (again a verb, take action!) from evil. It will be health to your flesh and strength to your bones.” – Proverbs 3:5-8 (NKJV)

The above words were written at a very dark moment of mine. Have you ever felt this way? Comment below and let’s encourage each other!

Why, Lord?

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Why? Why do I always sin?
Why do I always fail to reach my own standards of a “perfect” Christian? Why am I not stronger? Why is the world so full of evil and darkness?? All these whys….
But then I understood. I sin because God gave me free will to choose between right and wrong….and I chose wrong. I choose to rely on me. I choose to rely on my own standards, on my own guidelines… I don’t trust enough in the only One who will ever be perfect, in the One who defeated death, Satan and all things evil and wrong. My full devoted trust, when it should be in Jesus Christ, is in flesh and blood. Can we really ask why this world is so full of evil? We are to blame! We continuously choose wrong until we become so numb to the inner compass that God has placed deep inside every one of us that RIGHT and WRONG, become wrong and right… We destroy ourselves, and ask God..” why?” …..

But this isn’t the end, no matter how much it may seem like it. God. Gave. Us. Choice. Choose! Choose right, choose light! Choose the only one who WAS and IS and IS TO COME! Our savior Jesus Christ. In Him there is perfection, in Him there is peace…in Him there is GOOD! It is only in Him that we are strong enough to face the evils of this world and not fall on our faces. When we trust in the Lord, He will hold us up. But the second we take our eyes off of Him, we start drowning like Peter,(Matthew 14:22-33) in a tossing sea of darkness and pain and misery. The good Shepherd is our hope, our lighthouse when we start asking why.

So come let us repent, let us ask forgiveness for ever doubting His great love and strength. Let’s focus on the lighthouse when life’s water becomes rough. It is never to late.

“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” – Matthew 11:28-30 (NKJV)

The Great Exchange
Exchange my weariness for His strength, my weakness for His power, my darkness for His light, my problems for His solutions, my burdens for His freedom, my frustrations for His peace, my turmoil for His calm, my hopes for His promises, my afflictions for His balm of comfort, my questions for His answers, my confusion for His knowledge, my doubt for His assurances, my nothingness for His awesomeness, the temporal for the eternal and the impossible for the possible!

Quoted from Elizabeth George’s book titled “A Woman After God’s Own Heart. A book I recommend for any young wife or mom! I just finished it along with the growth and study guide and I loved it! It has so much to offer on priorities, marriage and motherhood. Link to amazon buy below.

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