Well I must say I have been caught up by the chaos of Summer… so hopefully you will forgive me for not posting in the last while. Camping trips, spending time with loved ones and other various projects have been keeping me busy. It was a blessing though, and it helped keep my mind off infertility.
Now that life has calmed down for a bit, it hit me again. In all honesty it makes me feel like a failure. So I’m just sitting here wondering why my body doesn’t do what its supposed to. Why don’t I have regular cycles? Why cant I seem to get pregnant yet when so many other woman can? Why do I have to wait, while others are begging for a break? Why do the people who want to be parents so badly have to wait?
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11
I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well. Psalm 139:14
O give thanks unto the Lord; for he is good: for his mercy endureth for ever. Psalm 136:1
I have so many questions, and it seems like so few answers. My comfort is Christ. My comfort is knowing that God has mercy on me, and hasn’t left my side. Simply put, I’m not a failure not in His eyes. So when your questioning God or your body, or the journey of infertility remember that His plans are good. God sees, He knows, always hears, and loves you beyond measure!
The Hopeful Wife